intimidation

Things I’m Doing When I Should be Writing!

Things I’m doing when I should be Writing!

  • Napping
  • Watching Battlestar Galactica
  • Reading books (Written by people much more talented than me.)
  • Pinning tattoos I’ll never get on Pinterest.
  • Pinning EVERYTHING on Pinterest.
  • Forcing my dog to cuddle me. (Love me!)
  • Fantasizing about my dream job.
  • Napping
  • Working over time at my real job. (Gross)
  • Staring at my computer screen blankly.
  • Looking up random greek mythology.
  • Daydreaming myself into adventures instead of my characters.
  • Wondering how my brain got so disorganized (Who's in charge here?!)
  • Napping  

                 So it looks like I need to try harder to schedule my writing time. I should also start going to bed sooner apparently. With my new work schedule it’s safe to say I have been a bit thrown off my writing game. Not to worry I’ll be making a comeback, just need to focus more. Sure, it’s easier said than done, but so are a lot of things I have done. Fiction Friday will be a day late. I know, Friday is right there in the title, sorry. Sometimes life is exhausting.

Writing is the Easy Part?

I have read a lot of blogs and articles about writing, publishing, what it take to be a writer and all kinds of subjects in this wheel house. When reading about what comes after you’re done writing your book and how to get published something you hear a lot is that the writing was the easy part. Really the writing is the easy part?

I can see what they mean in a way. Of course the writing is the easy part. It’s just you and your story, you write what you want and no one is going to tell you what it do. It’s pretty low pressure, no one breathing down your neck to get it done (Usually). You can be creative and have a free reign over your stories world. You don’t need to rely on anyone but yourself. So yes I can see how the writing is the “Easy” part.

Speaking as a writer in the midst of my first manuscript, hearing that the writing is the easy part is super terrifying! So you’re telling me that this task, that someday’s seems completely impossible and crushingly overwhelming is the easy part? Yikes! I’m spending hours trying to make my story something that people can follow, find interesting, entertaining, and hopefully even suggest to there friends. Sometimes I even get stuck for weeks on a single idea or chapter, this is the easy part?

Sorry to be in such shock, but wow! The thought makes me almost want to turn tail and run. It’s probably just because I’m currently in a funk with the part of my story I’m working on. I know some parts will come easier than others. But it’s an up and down process. So I keep trudging through the “easy part”.

They say (you know “They” the all seeing, all knowing, made up people, that control all information sent in to the world. Yeah them) Well, they say, once you finish your book the hard part starts. Seeking representation, getting a publisher, marketing, promoting, putting yourself and your book out there, that’s the hard part. I believe them, I do. And when the time comes I’ll be ready and willing to do that hard work, but can we all just agree it’s a totally different thing. Can’t we just say “Writing a book is hard.” AND “Getting a book published is hard.” Both are difficult tasks. I’ll eventually be taking on both.

It might feel impossible some days but I’m still the master of my own fate at the moment.  So I’ll try and hold on to that fact as I push myself through the HARD part of writing my book.

Writer Intimidation!

Writer Intimidation So you just finished reading an amazing book! You never saw that crazy plot twist coming! And once the narrator weaves the intricate detail that now masterfully link the first chapter to the last your mind is blown! Left reeling at the amazing story to behold! If you're an aspiring write such as myself your next thought might be… “HOLY CRAP, I SUCK!”

That’s right I call it “Writer Intimidation” When the sheer genius of other writers causes you to crush your own self worth as a writer. Don’t get me wrong it’s not their fault. It’s just that as humans we can’t help but compare ourselves to others. Most of these writers have years of experience. I suppose it’s not really fair to compare myself to writers like C.S. Lewis, J.K Rowling, and Arthur C. Clarke. I just might be a bit hard on myself.

It’s easy to look at a great book and tell yourself you can’t write something like that. Don’t listen to that b**ch, yes you can! Yes I can! Will it be easy? Probably not. But that doesn't mean it’s impossible. We are all different and our stories are going to come out different. Thank God! But every amazing author was once just someone with an idea. I’m constantly needing to give my inner writer a pep talk. Things like. “It’s ok, you can do this.” , “It doesn't matter if it sucks right now just get the words out!”, ‘It’s only the first draft.”  And “Even if you’re the only one who ever loves your story you still have to write it.”

Reading makes us better writers, so I’m not going to stop reading just because I get intense “writer intimidation”. I’ll just have to push through the self doubt and learn from these great writers!