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Keep it Up, Buttercup.

Keep it Up, Buttercup.

The good news is… I’ve hit 30,000 words on my manuscript! The bad news is I’m convinced a quarter of the thing is gonna need to be deleted and rewritten. I write one chapter and everything feels right. My characters are funny my plot points make sense, then BOOM next chapter everything is awful. Why does that happen? So that’s how the Manuscript is going. I’m a rollercoaster of self-confidence and self-loathing. I’m in a glass case of emotion.

There are things that help me keep on keeping on though. First would be my human support system. Constantly proofreading my posts and gently reminding me that if I don’t write at least 2,000 words a week on my manuscript I’ll never finish by Nov 1st. (Thanks Honey, not sarcasm.)

On the more technical side, one of the things that really helps me to keep pushing through is consistency. If I’m writing at least 3 times a week it helps keep up my momentum. Even when things are looking bleak on the page. As opposed to, let's say, not writing anything three weeks in a row (Oops, I swear I’ll be better.) Really I would rather write something mediocre and change it later than write nothing. So I’m adding to my list of goals, write at least 3 times a week. Preferably it will be on my manuscript but I’m leaving my options open.

Another thing that keeps me both motivated and distracted is reading. This feels like my constant battle, reading takes up time I could be writing, but it inspires me hearing a great stories. Reading more also teaches me the difference between a bad writer, a good writer and a great writer. Over all I think it’s worth some loss of time to keep up my reading. Plus, I’m 2 books behind my yearly reading goal. This writer is a slow reader, go figure.  

The last thing I can think of that really makes me want to keep clacking away at the keyboard is my outline! I have mentioned briefly before that I have my entire plot outlined in color coded index cards on the wall of my office. Complete with 4 different colors of index cards and 4 other colors of post-it notes. It also sports thumb tacks with bits of string going from here to there keeping track of some “Wibbly Wobbly Timey Wimey stuff.”- The Doctor. My husband lovingly refers to it as my serial killer wall. I have the entire story arch of my series on the wall. Anytime I hit a rough patch on a section I’m writing I can look at my outline and remember the awesome things I have planned and tell myself I have to take my character through this, so they can get to that. Oh how I want to skip ahead, but writing time travel is hard enough as it is.

Well that’s how it’s going this Manuscript Monday. I hope you writers out there are getting them words out, be it on paper or through glorious technology. (Always backup your work!) If you have things that motivate you to keep writing when all you really want to do is go binge watch Netflix (like I want to) let me know what they are.

Writing is the Easy Part?

I have read a lot of blogs and articles about writing, publishing, what it take to be a writer and all kinds of subjects in this wheel house. When reading about what comes after you’re done writing your book and how to get published something you hear a lot is that the writing was the easy part. Really the writing is the easy part?

I can see what they mean in a way. Of course the writing is the easy part. It’s just you and your story, you write what you want and no one is going to tell you what it do. It’s pretty low pressure, no one breathing down your neck to get it done (Usually). You can be creative and have a free reign over your stories world. You don’t need to rely on anyone but yourself. So yes I can see how the writing is the “Easy” part.

Speaking as a writer in the midst of my first manuscript, hearing that the writing is the easy part is super terrifying! So you’re telling me that this task, that someday’s seems completely impossible and crushingly overwhelming is the easy part? Yikes! I’m spending hours trying to make my story something that people can follow, find interesting, entertaining, and hopefully even suggest to there friends. Sometimes I even get stuck for weeks on a single idea or chapter, this is the easy part?

Sorry to be in such shock, but wow! The thought makes me almost want to turn tail and run. It’s probably just because I’m currently in a funk with the part of my story I’m working on. I know some parts will come easier than others. But it’s an up and down process. So I keep trudging through the “easy part”.

They say (you know “They” the all seeing, all knowing, made up people, that control all information sent in to the world. Yeah them) Well, they say, once you finish your book the hard part starts. Seeking representation, getting a publisher, marketing, promoting, putting yourself and your book out there, that’s the hard part. I believe them, I do. And when the time comes I’ll be ready and willing to do that hard work, but can we all just agree it’s a totally different thing. Can’t we just say “Writing a book is hard.” AND “Getting a book published is hard.” Both are difficult tasks. I’ll eventually be taking on both.

It might feel impossible some days but I’m still the master of my own fate at the moment.  So I’ll try and hold on to that fact as I push myself through the HARD part of writing my book.